Victim

Victim is different from any other song that I've written

Because it's an exaggeration of myself

I am well aware that I've hurt a lot of people from dating

And I hated that about myself

The only way for me to get my emotions out is to write

So I wrote a version of me if I was shameless

I thought if I wrote a song about my flaws

I would be able to get it out of my system

For the longest time I had mixed feelings about Victim

My friends loved it but I felt a little uncomfortable

Singing about being proud of my vices

Only recently I decided to make peace with it

It's a song that I wrote

And it doesn't represent who I am as a person

Hurting others is a huge trigger for me

In college I would drop out of my classes left and right

Because I "felt" like I would fail

But dropping choir was different

Because there are other people involved

I can't sneak out

The whole choir is important and I would screw that up by leaving

After years of therapy and introspection

I've gotten to a place where I am excited to go back to school

I made sure not to overwhlem myself by taking too many classes

I have a license so now I can drive myself to school

I've grown in so many ways

I go back to school on January 16th

Wish me luck :)