she kissed my breath away

I came out as bisexual when I was 15

Which was bold because I figured it out when I was 15

Unfortunately I had a lot of internalized biphobia and doubt

All the way until I was 21

It wasn't until I kissed one girl in particular

When I was able calm the internal turmoil

she kissed my breath away is about that girl

I've dated girls in the past but my anxiety was always stronger than my feelings

Every kiss I would check in on how I was feeling:

Is this how I'm supposed to feel?

Was I feeling enough?

I was never able to stay in the moment

I couldn't be present with the women I was with

For some reason this girl in particular made it easier for me

Maybe it was because I've known of her for a long time

Maybe it was because we were both emotionally open

But I haven't questioned my sexuality since

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If you're reading this

I'm sorry I was so forward

I was so relieved to find a girl that I could be comfortable around

I was afraid I wouldn't find that anywhere else

Thank you for our times together

You've helped me in so many ways

I hope you'll forgive me