The Album

Over the past 6 years

I've been posting originals on youtube

Immediately after I finish a song

I would post it

I never waited for a "better" time to post

If I finished at 3am it was out by 3am

I now have over 30 original songs up

It's not all of my songs but it's a big majority

I would put my whole heart into those songs

I never released any of them on spotify

Because I told myself I would wait

Until I do them "right"

Until I record them professionally

Until it's perfect

I've been frustrated with myself

My inner critic would say I'm a fake musician

That I don't know what I'm doing

That I'm wasting money going into a studio to record

Because my music isn't worth that much

In therapy I've been working on self love

Celebrating my achievements

I have a bad habit of ignoring all the work I've put in

And dismissing my accomplishments

I genuinely forget things that I've done

Because I'm not doing everything I want to

I'm learning how to be more gentle with myself

I realized that I've already made music

I've recorded everything on my own

I posted them all on youtube

I'm proud of them

Why not release those files on spotify?

I had this idea that to release an album

It needed to be 100% perfect

And it needed to be new

I have all theses songs just sitting in my computer

Why do I have to ignore all that hard work

For something that doesn't exist yet?

I record everything right away

So I sing the emotions I feel at that exact moment

The songs are me in my rawest form

Why would I release anything else?

It doesn't need to be perfect

It needs to be me

I decided to impulsively release an album

8 of my songs from the past 4 years

I rerecorded a select few

But most will be using my original Ableton files

The album will be called:

Proof That I'm Alive

It'll be yours December 31st